Celestial Wanderer

                           Amidst the many dust particles in the black space she lived like an orb, shining low. The gut feeling inside her knew she certainly didn’t belong there. Emotionally killed many times before by the constellation of which she’d been a quantum, the psychologically wrecked soul lived a mere caged bird’s life, wanting to break the barrier at the threshold so that some day she might not want to see the stars through a fence.

                            Like a daffodil cracking up a concrete floor came her college life. It was the odd which had sprinkled some colours upon that sickened life. It was there she saw a distant star which melted emotions and mixed it up chaotically, resulting turmoil inside her heart. She witnessed him smiling his heart out, in the most zealous way, something which she could never practice. It was perfectly placed to bang a bomb onto her steady state. His random gestures in the air invited special feelings into her.

                            Just like an illustration to that law of science which recites negatively charged particles get attracted towards the positive ones she found herself pulled towards that feeble gravitational force- knowing, yet, there were little chances for anything to get near. She started feeling like he’d come like a distant star to enlighten her darkened phase when the eyes glanced through, longing for company.

The caged bird is let out, unlearnt to fly.

                                         

                          It was a rebirth when she happened to talk with him, and there she experienced the first miracle of her life- a miracle that cheated time. Slowly, he became the reason for her unusual smiles- she smiled, sometimes with his presence, sometimes with his memories and sometimes even with his existence. Even after such tenderly moments spent together, she felt like their relationship was getting so far away yet being too near. The taste of the world’s best coffee without sugar was what that depicted her situation right then. It was all so one-sided without even a weak effort from other side.

                        Sadly, it was the time when she thought she’d shift gears to accelerate the pace with which they were affiliating, he learnt that cancer cells could only be killed at the early stages. Uninterested in what was lying ahead, he started distancing himself from that out-of-reach temptation. Like years of care in building a station vanishing in a single whip, he lived an example only to sow in her the true definition of pain. The pain like she’d never experienced before. The pain of a thousand knives piercing through your body and your ability to still can’t cry out, or worse, even when you scream out aloud just within the audible range and people can’t hear it out. After all, stars aren’t placed far away just to cast light upon the lonely celestial wanderer.